April 2011
44 posts
closed eyes.
joyamj:
“if you can’t see them, they can’t see you.” it’s way easier to just close our eyes and shut ourselves off from the rest of the world, but we can’t do that. we cannot close our eyes on life. we shouldn’t go through life trying to be invisible. no matter how hard it is for me to see things that hurt me, i will keep my eyes open. i’ll look past the selfish actions that people make and...
in my shower.
I don’t know why I always try to stop myself from crying…sometimes you just have to let the tears fall; acknowledge the hurt and try to move on. I hate crying…so I always transport myself to the shower when I need to let it all go.
I like the fact that my tears blend with the water that falls from the shower head….that way I can just pretend that the water dripping down my...
inSANE Sanity.
Society is always giving “legitimate reasons” (or what I would call “excuses”) for insanity. When insanity is sanctioned, does it become sane? Is it not insane anymore because society has justified actions by what they refer to as “valid” explanations for ludicrous acts executed by the abrupt people in the world today? Or has the whole world just gone crazy?! I...
you DON'T know me.
Just because we’re related doesn’t mean we know each other. I might have your eyes…your hair texture…we may act alike sometimes. But we are different. Not the same. Not even a little. Because what you do…I would never. I don’t understand you…I don’t know you…and you most definitely don’t know me. We do not know each other.
Out of sight. Means you're in my mind.
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An apple a day keeps Love away.
Why is it that we find it necessary to carry on multiple relationships rather than taking our time with one. If you are interested in a person, then perhaps you should take the time to enjoy that moment…and person. Why multi task a pleasure filled activity such as human connection? While I understand the American attitude of productivity, I lose it with the idea that life can only give you...
I'm the type of girl...
…that gets over things easily. I can’t be mad at anyone, for longer than a second. I’d like to be on the good side of you, your family, and friends. I want to better you, but not change you. I want to make you laugh, and talk about anything and everything all night long. I want to be able to sleep next to you, without having sex. But honestly…most of the time I will want sex. We can...
undoubted Hope.
Life is so damn complicated. Shit goes wrong. Feelings get tangled…thoughts intertwined. Love fucks you up. People fuck you over. Your perception of life becomes misconstrued by all of the opulent and prudent shit the world encompasses. My head becomes chaotic as thoughts race through the blood vessels in my brain that supposedly operate to make sense of all that confuses me. Shit is crazy....
ssenippah (happiness)
Happiness. Something I don’t know much about. Wikipedia defines it as “a mental state of well-being characterized by positive emotions ranging from contentment to intense joy.”
This means absolutely nothing to mean. It’s a bunch of letters thrown together in an order that might seem valid to many. But it means nothing to me.
Happiness has always been that one thing I saw...
“A master in the art of living draws no sharp distinction between his work and...”
– L. P. Jacks (via yesiac)
I'm addicted.
and I just can’t get enough.
one day.
shehlovee:
One day you’re gonna want her. That girl that knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be for you. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you, and loving you was the only way she could. The girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths. That girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it. The girl that...
beauty undefined.
Beauty. What is that? Beauty is superficial. Beauty is subjective. Beauty is irrelevant….to me. I mean seriously. Did you create yourself? Did you choose the color of your eyes? The shape of your mouth? How tall your are? The size of your body? Why is it such an important factor in today’s society? I don’t get it…and I despise it. It makes me uncomfortable….I’m...
break-able.
I think often, a lot of people mistake me for somebody who’s feelings are invincible. I mean yeah, it’s true that not a lot of things get to me.. but there’s always a line that shouldn’t be crossed. I may seem like a strong girl, and I am…but I have my soft spots…I have feelings….and no matter how much I hide them, people do get to me. I always lead people to think that I’m...
i like that you like me...but i really like that i...
what am i...what i am afraid of.
Getting what you want is scary. Because then you actually have something worth losing.
I think he likes me.
shehlovee:
Well, I like him too.
People ask me why I like tattoos. I tell them the...
i cry.
joyamj:
sometimes i cry and i feel weak for doing it. but it’s okay to cry. it makes you stronger, it makes you healthier, it builds character. we’re humans, not robots…sparks aren’t gonna come flying out of your body if water leaks out. emotions aren’t weak, and neither am i.
4/3/11 Free Write
Confused, but happy. Wanting it all. All meaning you. So out of my character….leaves me confused again. I am not myself. Good or bad? I don’t really know. Cooking? really, seriously laughing out loud…but for you..yes. And liked it. Whoa. Weird. I don’t know where my head is right now…or my heart. Or my thoughts. Didn’t know someone could make me feel this way....
“When I’m good, I’m very good, but when I’m bad, I’m better.”
– Mae West
“The exquisite pain of wanting someone so unattainable.” -Sex & the City
I mean really….what is that? It’s fucked up…that’s what that is. Story of my life.
You're Actions Kill Me...
I feel dead on the inside. I am not living…just breathing.
